Single Parenthood?

I have been baby sitting for the last two days.
I've come to the conclusion, there is a reason
God intended there to be two parents. Its hard
work, I can't imagine doing it on my own.
Thats all... its just my thought for the day.

Just an update.. or something like it.

Hey Guys.

I know, its been a while.
Just a little bit to catch you up on.
Welp, its official, I'm not moving to Chicago.
Weird. I know. For those of you who have journeyed,
in this long, crazy journey, probably feel much like me.
What the heck am I going to do now?
Well, I have some options available. Nashville, TN.
What isn't cool about the country capitol of the world?
Or.. if that doesn't strike your fancy, how does...
the official assistant coach position for the varsity girls
basketball team of Mckenzie High School sound?
I might actually have a chance to break in the high-top Nikes.
And, then of course. There is Raymond. Sweet, Raymond.
I'm praying and hoping with him toward Belgium for Christmas.
Picture this, snow, a quaint little cabin in the Belgium country side.
Coffee, fire, presents, pajamas.
Sounds amazing to me.

So.. I cried for about 45 minutes on Monday when I made my decision.
I grieved the loss of a dream to realize I am embracing..
...gaining perhaps a bigger one.











Nashville at Night.














Belgium at Christmas.











Jordan's I want for 07-08 Basketball Season.

Results of the quest.

So. I spent all day at the beach. I love the Oregon coast, its beautiful.

I didn't recieve some miraculous sign, like a whale beaching itself, and speaking something prophetic. After all day, I had a quiet assurance that I need to stick with my original decision of the 24th. I could explain it all to you, but I fear it would take forever. If you want to know the details, give me a call, and I'd love to explain everythind leading up to my decision. Here are some pics from today though.. it was a wonderful day for a Spirit Quest to the beach. Thanks for your prayers!

Off on a spirit quest.

Its that time of year again. Where I need to sort through some big decisions. Many of you know I have been working at getting to Chicago.. well, the plan that I have had in my head hasn't been executed quite like I thought it would. I recently had a long conversation with a mentor, and very close friend. I left the conversation with peace, and understanding about the future, and thought I was ready to make a decision. I was wrong.

I am currently at about 40% of my needed monthly support, and thought that I would make my official decision by September 24th, to go or not to go, depending on the level of my support. Yesterday, another option came my way. I have the opportunity to work part time to supplement the support that has not come in. I have no idea what to do now. I am taking the next three days to pray, and seek the Lord for His will in my decision. So today, I am leaving for the beach, to get away, without distraction.

You're prayers would be appreciated for the next 48 hours as I wait on the Lord for clarity.

The beginning of something new...

Hello everyone.

I have been wanting to start one of these blog-spots for quite some time. I wanted a way to keep my family and friends updated with what is going on in my life, and well with technology like it is, here we go. I hope those of you that do decide to read it from time to time will enjoy it, and in an age where we grow more and more independent, my hope is it will keep you in my life and close to your heart.

My life is currently at a crossroads. Sure, I have found myself at one of these pivotal times many times before, but like almost every other time, the decisions that are ahead of me seem to be monumental. For the last four years, I have dreamed of going back to Chicago, a city I know and love, to live, serve, and share the love of Christ with the inner-city. Here I stand, two days after the original departure date with 40% of my needed support. At a time like this, it really makes a person question whether or not they heard the voice of God correctly. So, after a night of pouring my heart out to the Lord, I am at a stand-still, waiting to hear His voice, hoping it would be loud and clear, but willing to settle for the soft whisper of assurance.

About a year and a half ago, a wonderful friend came in to my life. His name is Raymond. He lives in Belgium, a native of Cameroon, Africa. He has a heart of gold, one that loves, seeks, and shares the love of Jesus Christ. His friendship has been the most surprising thing I have ever experienced. Living thousands upon thousands of miles apart has really begun to be a battle for me, but with the help of God, and a patient, enduring partner, we wait. We wait on the Lord, that in His time, He will bring us together, in the same place, to experience the things of life together. Together we are hoping for Christmas.

So the future is there... and a bit unclear. But, I am learning to know and trust that God is sovereign and He does have a plan. I may not know what tomorrow holds, but I know what forever holds, and I know that God is good and that His love endures forever.

I am reading a great book called "Red Moon Rising," its teaching me all about the power and importance of prayer. Great, great book. I'm hoping as you are a part of my life, and as you may read this, you may learn how you can more specifically pray for me.

Thank you for journeying with me.. for being a part of my life.